another entry...

I've been blogging so much on this blog that I've totally neglected my other more public one.

I am bad.

Anyway. Spotting stopped after this morning - whatever. I know not of what to think of it.

I went to Kohls today. My pants haven't been fitting me. Whenever I try to sit for any amount of time it makes my cramps worse, so I have to unbutton them. Because of this I've been wearing baggy shirts lately.

I have not gained any weight but I think my midsection has gotten bigger...at least the lower portion. It seems to be mostly gas, b/c I've been SUPER gassy since I ovulated...and I guess it's also b/c of the pregnancy. It's not fun, and I still manage to never 'break wind' in front of Mike. LOL

I tried on some jeans a size or two bigger but they were horrible. They fit too big all over. I just need it bigger in one spot. The belly. So, I went to the extremely limited maternity section that they have and tried on some maternity jeans. They have this cotton belly part that covers the entire stomach. They are like stretch pants, the way you pull them on. No button. I have to admit, they were the most comfortable things I ever put on... at least the most comfortable thing close to jeans. I contemplated buying them but then mentally -- i just couldn't. I know I'm pregnant (i say it a lot, I just try to keep convincing myself) ... but until Tuesday/Wednesday's results, I don't think I could justify the splurge. However, I did manage to get 2 maternity shirts. One looks very maternity-ish but I like it, it's something I can see myself wearing on Christmas if the news is good. And I bought a grey hooded sweater -- it's definitely not maternity-ish. I usually wear a L and the sweater is a L but it's sorta tight on me. What the hell size would I be if I got pregnant. I can only imagine.


Anyway, I also bought myself a ring, to try and keep my spirits up.

On the outside of the ring the following is inscribed:
My Pride, My Joy, My Strength, My Courage, My Love

and on the inside it says:
My Family

I love it... it says it's sterling silver, but the sterling silver rings I've gotten from Kohls always turn my finger green. I really hope this one doesn't.

They are having a 'fab' sale on jewelry and this ring was normally $40 and I think I got it for $15, not too shabby. Plus I had $20 Kohl's Cash and a 15% off coupon. w00t -- so I splurged a little more and got some flannel sheets with snowmen on them.

I love snowmen.

I'm happier today.

Not feeling really depressed like I was yesterday. Yesterday was doom and gloom and today I'm just weird.

My brain is mush. I cry at everything. (I thought that was supposed to happen later)... I cry at funny stuff, scary stuff, sad etc...

I have major heartburn.

Cramps have lessened.

I am ranting...

ooooh yeah, and I'm breaking out like a friggen teenager and can't take any acne meds... *sigh* -- there are worse things, i know.