I have this horrible feeling...

That the pregnancy isn't going well. Cramps are getting worse. They are not fun. They aren't specific to any side anymore...just all over. Now I know since I have Fibromyalgia that everything feels like 100x's worse than it would for someone without FM, so maybe I can attribute the pains to that. 

I haven't had anymore spotting... but still, I just have this feeling, that something's not right.

I've been taking HPTs daily to see if the line is getting darker, and it is, ever so slightly though. I feel that when I go in my beta's will be too low and I will have to m/c.

I'm sad.  

I didn't think I'd be this attached this early on especially with the current situation...but I am attached.

All I want to do is cry. I don't think Mike would understand why though. I know he's not going through this physically... but emotionally -- i don't think he's ready to even be excited until he knows the definites on Tues/Wed after my blood tests. I can't help but be partly excited...and partly depressed, b/c I don't know what to think.

I'm an emotional wreck and I've been keeping it bottled up for all this time. 

I'm going to go to bed now and just cry it out... Hopefully I'm feeling better tomorrow...