What the ?!?!?!

Holy shit. What a friggen emotional whirlwind I've gone through the past 2.5 hours.

7pm - OB/GYN Appt

I tell the doc my issues. Cramps, lighting crotch going on, slightly dizzy at times, ovary hurts when I touch it.

Doc goes in and feels around, it's uncomfy but bearable. She doesn't find anything significant.

Doc sets me up for an 'intra' uterine ultrasound. Not the most fun I've ever had. I've been through these before when I had ovarian cysts rupture. Now that's an unbearable pain.

Did a urine test. - Everything is NEGATIVE, I'm healthy as a whistle. Pregnancy test? == Negativo!! Hells, I just did one yesterday on my own, and I could've told them that.

Got my finger pricked for some blood.

The ultrasound shows an abnormal amount of fluid behind my uterus, like, a lot. It's common to have 'some' when an ovarian cysts ruptures. But she says this is A LOT. She says it's most likely just the fluid from a big cyst still sitting around and it should get absorbed, and in a week or so, I should feel no pain. If I do, I just come back in for another checkup.

Perfect, I can live with that.

She says the other reason I could have fluid : Ectopic Pregnancy : I would have a POSITIVE pregnancy test, which I don't, and my hemoglobin levels would be around 6 signifying I have internal bleeding. But my hemoglobin levels are at 14 which is perfect. 

I leave the office -- relieved that it's just "nothing"

I'm in my car, driving away... I call Mike (yes, that's Mr.Moo) and I start telling him the results, then... I get THE CALL.

It's my OB.

OB: "Hey, I think I see a faint line on your pregnancy test and I think you may be pregnant..."

Me: "Um okay??" (thinking, HOLY FUCK!!!)

OB: "Can you turn around and come back so we can take some more blood?"

Me: "Um okay??" (thinking, How the hell am I going to drive back to the office, I'm shaking."

If I'm pregnant - does it means it's an ectopic pregnancy? Aren't I supposed to be in severe pain? Do I have to go to the hospital?? What the hell is wrong with me?!?!?!

I get back to the office and try to walk in as calmly as possible. I'm the only patient there. They are almost totally closed and locked up. I feel weird.

In a way, I'm kinda excited at the fact that I've charted pretty decently for the first time ever and got myself pregnant...but the whole knowing how potentially bad and life threatening the situation is I am flabbergasted.

They took a good amount of blood. Sending it to the labs tonight. All the nurses were talking about 'it's so early if she's pregnant'... what the HELL does that mean?! They continue "but it's only 4 weeks, how could she be?" --- dude, I have no clue what they are meaning to say...but I can eavesdrop like Holy Hell so they should really get a room!

They are taking my blood to do a pregnancy test. This will tell for SURE if I'm pregnant. I will know by 12pm, Tomorrow.

Here are the scenarios:

1 - I have an ovarian cyst that ruptured. A big one. The Pregnancy test -- was a fluke. I'm not pregnant. Good to go.

2 - I have an ovarian cyst that ruptured. A big one. The Pregnancy test -- was not a fluke. I'm pregnant. Good to go.

3 - I have no ovarian cyst that ruptured. I am having an ectopic pregnancy. I have to go to the hospital and have it 'taken care of' -- I'm not really sure of the procedure, but I hear if it's not done. I could die.

So for now, I wait. I was told to monitor my symptoms closely. If the pain gets a lot worse. Go to the hospital. If it shoots to my shoulder. Go to the hospital... get some surgery done.

If no pain, wait until 12pm tomorrow. Find out I'm pregnant or not. If I am, I got back in on Thursday to get my hormones checked. If they are rising since today's blood test, then most likely am having a normal pregnancy. If they aren't rising, then I need to go to the hospital... get some surgery done.

Fuck -- I'm a mess. :-(