weird...

So yeah... we've been having a bit of a dry spell lately.
I've been on these meds to help with some anxiety/depression I had since the D&C and also some meds for GERD. I'm supposed to have an increase is sex-drive, but I think it's had the opposite affect on me.

Today, suddenly...I want to be pregnant again. I no longer want to wait.
I secretly hope that the 2-3x's we did do stuff, we managed to get pregnant. I don't think that is the case though, but it is a hope.
My period is due tomorrow. Maybe that is why I am getting this shift in feelings...hormones.
My temps have been so all over the place lately, I can't even tell when I O. I have just recently had EWCM and I thought I was supposed to be dry before my riod. I don't get it. I know it can take time to get back onto a normal cycle, if that even happens.

If we got pregnant now, it would be perfect, we'd still be able to go to my family reunion in late July. I don't want to fly in 1st trimester... I'd like to lessen the risk if possible.

What am I saying, we're not going to 'TRY' until July anyway.

Tattooooo!

I want a white tattoo sooo bad.

Rant?

I think since my D&C, we've dtd twice. I guess technically, that's not SOO bad, considering we were told not to do anything for a few weeks following the procedure, and also, I was just scared that I wasn't healed.... but still.

To me, I feel like we just don't do it as much anymore, b/c, what's the point if we're not trying to get pregnant. I know that sounds totally lame and is not exactly the case.

I am on Budeprion and Aciphex. Budeprion is another form of Welbutrin. My doc prescribed it to me as an anti-depressant. The side effects are supposed to be and increase in energy and sexual appetite. LOL -- too funny. I have to admit, I still need my daily caffeine jolt to get me through the day. I'm not so sure I'm feeling any kind of side effects from it yet, except that I'm not as depressed as I used to be. It could be because I'm no longer working at the worst job ever. LOL

The Aciphex is for a case of GERD that I started getting when I was pregnant. I was only pregnant for 8 or 9 weeks but I had symptoms of GERD from about week 4. I'm not sure why. Anyway, the symptoms just kept getting worse even after the procedure. I've since added more protein into my diet to counteract the carbs I eat. (it's so hard to cut back on carbs) lol. Aciphex is working. It's amazing. Not a single symptom of GERD since I started taking it. YAY!

Okay -- so, Budeprion is supposed to be an anti-depressant that I will not have to be weaned off should we decide to try and get pregnant again. Which is great. Really though, I am just not so fond of being on any kind of drug that messes with the way my brain is functioning. The main reason I decided to take it was b/c my doc had suggested to me that the chances of Post Partum Depression are heightened if you are depressed before/during your pregnancy. I don't personally know what that is like, but from what I've read and heard, it's best to avoid if there is a way to do it. So this is my way.

I've never had a history of depression. I can admit that the most depressing point in my life was after the D&C. I never knew what depression was really like until then. Wow -- does it change you.

Anyway -- I'm rambling.

Oh, and I guess just to add to it, here's my confusing chart for this cycle. I really hate how my previous one was very easy to read, and this one, I can't understand. I feel that I am doing something wrong, I don't know. I think maybe my body is just still readjusting from the D&C...
























And here is my First Cycle -- easy to read -- shows when I got pregnant too.

Can someone please interpret this for me...

I have no idea how to read this one.

My first round of charting -- my temp was pretty steady in the beginning, then we got pregnant at the point of Oing. Easy Peasy... But I can't read this one at all. It seems my temp is all over the place.

I had my D&C 2 months and 1 day ago LOL -- maybe I'm just not back on track yet.

Anyway... here's my chart so far.



We are NOT trying to get pregnant right now. We are 'preventing' for sure. I want to make sure (as much as I can try) my body is really ready to accept and keep the next pregnancy. I know there really is no telling...

Doc said to wait 3 cycles before trying. If we wanted to try now, we probably would anyway... But... not so sure that is the smartest thing. I don't really know the risk.

I hope things are semi back to normal by the summer. We will probably try again in July.

Wedding Video!!!

Yay!!! We got our video last week...

We are getting the raw footage, along with 30 minute movie type and 5 minute highlight so I can post it online for people to see.

They used 8mm film in some of it for the old style look.


Our Photographer/Videographer was Life Mosaic Studios... they are amazing.
I highly recommend.

Here is the highlight video from the wedding.

Lately...

I've been pretty busy. Who thought being a housewife would take up more time than a full-time paid job? I mean, I knew it was a lot of work, just makes me think, how was it even possible that we managed the house without one of us home full-time. The answer -- we didn't.

The house is overwhelming me. There's so much to be done. I decided against taking the part-time 20 hour a week desk job, and took the pet sitting job. It's a steady 2hours a day 5 days a week plus any over night pet sitting gigs that come up. The money is decent and I like that I am able to pick and choose which jobs I want and don't want. There is freedom. Plus, walking dogs every day will be my daily exercise!! Rain, Shine, Sleet, Snow -- I'm like the mailman.

My dog has been giving me the stink eye lately. I think he thinks I'm cheating on him. He smells the other dogs on me. Sorry Peeps.

Anyway, besides all that, I have another gig going on the side and that is taking up a lot of time too. It's a hobby type thing that I LOVE to do, so I don't mind taking time out of my day to do it.

I have a schedule for household doings, but I haven't actually managed to get anything done yet. Little things creep up here and there that I didn't plan for.

Also, I'm taking a cake decorating class that takes a TON of time to prep for before each class. And, it's messy. LOL

Besides all that, I've been charting and my temps are all over the place. It's kinda funny to see, I guess b/c I expected it, having seen other chickies charts after having a miscarriage.

Okay, gotta run. Got 13 minutes to get ready to meet some friends for lunch - peace out.

HOORAY FOR AUNT FLO!!!

Yesssss! She's here!

She came in out of nowhere, just all of a sudden, I was walking, felt a little 'wetness'...thought maybe it's just that CM stuffy... but then a few seconds later (s'cuse my bluntness) it was gushing.

I ran to the bathroom, and there she was.

I was psyched!!!

I have been having the PMS-y symptoms ever since the D&C so I have always thought my period was right around the corner, but it never came. Now that she's here, I'm happy and relieved.

Unfortunately, she came on so fast and so did her 'physical' symptoms. After I ran to the bathroom I started getting cramps. They were light but have been getting more and more painful as the hours go on. It's been about 5hours and every once in awhile I'll feel a big cramp in one of my ovaries. The strange thing to me, is that in the past I would always feel the pain on my left ovary area.. now it's on both sides. I always just thought my right ovary never really functioned. LOL, now I know it does.

I'm so happy... just thought I'd share!!